We cannot say:” Now I have surrendered!”…
No, one has to surrender again and again, every time. It is ongoing process, the surrender- eternally so. One has to eternally gain the favor of Krishna. So this is quite something. So if we hear this description, the nature of relationship with Krishna, the nature of how He looks, than we see that it takes a spiritual life to stage of no compromise. That- for God- nothing but the best. No half work. Well, you know, I do something, alleluia… or Hari bol, you know some prayer… No, everything, complete, all the way. And than of course He will also come all the way. And if we only come this far, He will also come that far. And that we sort off well, stand there, God is far away. But if we come close, that He will come very close also, until very deep intimate relationships develop between devotee and Krishna. That is possible, very possible. And of course that is real spiritual life. It is not cheep. Than you become a Vaikuntha man, who goes to eternal plane. Than you will see it. Than is not a fairytale. But if we do a half work, than Krishna is sort of fairytale. Some bluish, blackish personality with the flute, living in the celestial forest with amazing friends and pastimes and nice- but what is got to do with a real life.
But, one who is deeply surrendering and is trying to adjust his life to Krishna, for him, he becomes to perceive that dimension, day by day, more and more. He becomes to perceive Krishna. Than life becomes fun, instead of struggle. Than it becomes quite ecstatic and blissful. And this is of course what spiritual life is meant to be.
Parts of the lecture given by HH Kadamba Kanana Swami 2008/01/04 Stockholm
